Dreaming Reality

Waking up in the middle of the night,

the dream is gone with the wind!!!

Looking out through the window frame,

the world has stopped in my eyes.

The flickering flame of the candle light

makes my shadow larger than life..

(The stones slip away as my feet touches the ground,

As i lay wide awake, among the stars,

her visions are the only sight)

I feel your presence everywhere

but i just can’t get to you.

I hear your voices in my head

but i just can’t talk to you.

Numbed down by the illusions

Paranoia reigns over me!!

Staring at the horizon

the stars seem to burn away.

Time drifts us apart, leaving us no option

apart from living with the memories we left behind!

(Nobody knows the way I am treading through;

The sorrow in my rage blinds me away.)

I feel your presence everywhere

but i just cant get to you.

I hear your voices in my head

but i just can’t talk to you.

Numbed down by the illusions

Paranoia reigns over me!!

How do i resist

the urge that’s ruining me?

Will you hold me in your comfort & guide me through?

Taking me over into a new beginning!!!!!!!!!!



An emotional tumult inside my head,

everything upside down, everything disintegrating into chaos.

Where every path lead to a dead end, failure staring me right into my eyes.


What are we fighting for?

is this worth a fight!!

In a state of despair, i find myself hurt!!

Broken down, hated upon

Oh, this is not what i have asked for.


I need your love, the tender love

which comforts me from the dreary reality.

I want your faith, the faith

which could move the mightiest mountains.

All I ever asked from you was to stand by me!!


But where are have you bought us now?

Stuck in the past!!

whereas i made peace within itself.

How hard is it for you?

Haven’t I pushed you,

but have you tried, did you move?


I have never been perfect,

i have had my shares of mistakes.

But never did my love for you ebb.

So why do i deserve this hate?

Why am i loathed and despised?

Can’t you see through my shade,

can’t you unravel the threads that lie within me.

Can’t you?


I have got no strength in me, to fight a battle which was long lost,

It is up to you to end this.

Will you??

Coming Clean

You and I

We stood there,

Ravaged, broken and shattered.

Nothing more was left,

Nothing more to be spoken of.

Silence never felt so discerning

Never did the distance feel so far,

Until now…

Vicarious was the life I lived,

But deadly was the reality I suffered in.

Her lips tempted the passion within,

And there was I, caught in the crossfire,

Lust swaying over my senses.

Devil reigning me over…

Alas, everything changed,

A part of me died.

Never could I be the same,

Never could I love her in the same way.

But I held the ground,

I held the secret in the deepest corner,

Only to love her straight out of my heart.

Thought this would be a tale from the bygone past,

Which I would tell her at a moment in future,

When everything would be alright…

I held on, I held on.

I dealt with the demons inside,

I struggled with the guilt

But how long could this go on!!

This had to end somewhere,

And the moment was now!!!!

And now that I have opened up

The deepest secret of my heart.

Dear reader,

Here we are standing…

Lost we are,

Everything has lost its meaning.

She is hurt by the deeds of my past,

Nor will she trust me again

Never will she love me again.

And here I stand vindicated,

But I seek forgiveness,

With a hope of starting all again

Coz she was the only one I ever loved……..